Just texted this to my love. Thought I’d share it with you, my beautiful followers:)

“My dad died when I was 14. Just a month after he passed I dated a nice guy, Matt, for a little over a year. While I was with him I depended on him for support & to sort of have his love replace my dads. Then when he left, not even 2 months later Colby & I got together & we dated for 2 years & I ended up doing the same thing to him. When we broke up, It was 3 years after my dad had gone, but I had only been single for not even 3 months. I never gave myself time to grieve & heal on my own or really let my dad go. So I took this past year to except he is gone & grow from the terrible experience. Thats why I turned so many down. I knew I needed to deal with this hurt on my own instead of trying to replace my dads love, wich isn’t fair to a guy because no one could replace it, & the guy would never truly be good enough if i had that perspective, & I would never truly be happy. But now, 4 years after he died, I have finally grown & healed. I’ve learned so much about myself & I’m finally ready to love again. You came into my life at the perfect moment, & you just so happen to be everything I want:) God is most certainly good to me:)”

I miss my dad so much, but I am one lucky girl to have my God. He has done so much for me & truly taught me to trust in him no matter how hard things get. I’m so thankful to him, & oh so very happy to have my Ray:) I really hope he is the one. If it doesn’t work out, I will be very sad, but God has a plan for me & I trust him. I only wish the rest of the world could carry around this same peace & contentment I have in my heart. :)